Know what sucks most (for me, anyway)? After 4 and a half years of loyal devotion to that show, 4 and a half years where, even on those many weeks I had to tape it, my 45 minutes to an hour of "West Wing" time was sacred - I've now had half a season of watching hardly at all, and I didn't watch last night. The freakin' season premiere, and I didn't watch it. I swore I'd go down with the ship, but now I'm feeling more like one of the rats. I think it's gonna take a damned big life preserver to get me back on board.