I am amused at my own amusement

It is sorely tempting to come up with a scene for Cain and Glitch where Cain gets to use the phrase, "You're using a straw man. You should know better than that."

I imagine he and Glitch/Ambrose having some debate, and Glitch/Ambrose tries to turn away from the main point, and Cain completely calls him on it.

It will not, sadly, work into the fic I'm plugging away on now. Although I am trying to work "sweetheart" in there somewhere. Most likely sarcastically. No matter the general squee of fandom, I do not see Cain as a man to employee nicknames unless they are, in fact, sarcastic. [And, yes, I do count the way he says "princess" amongst that rule. I think it started out sarcastic, and then it just stuck.]

Wherein I admit to my own ego

I'm a good writer. I know this, not because I get feedback telling me so, but because I know that I can get a grip on a character, put that character into a situation, and follow through until the bitter, bitter end.

And the feedback I get is a nice reminder, and I do appreciate it, but I wonder, sometimes, what it'd be to be one of those writers that people fall over to make happy. As far as I know, I've never been a Big Name Fan. If you know of some secret shrine to me, I'd love to hear about it, but overall I'm well aware that my appeal comes from being able to make it short, sweet, and to the point.

I'm cool with that. I like short, sweet, and to the point. I take pride in being able to throw out a couple thousand words max and have people enjoy it. I like that people look forward to what I can throw out there.

Recently, those short and sweet pieces have turned into long, drawn-out, character-driven madness. There's 14,000 words here, another 29,000 words there, and now the "Tin Man" fic, which is coming up on 12,000 words pretty fast. And I can't help but wonder what the reaction would be if I was the aforementioned BNF.

In short, I'm being a ridiculous dipshit woh usually appreciates the affection she gets [because you lot do give me a lot], but perhaps my ego just needs a stroking, or perhaps I just need to stop reading fandomsecrets, because I'm sitting here and honestly thinking about it like the fact that I'm liked isn't good enough. And that's crap.

Feel free to roll your eyes and tell me to shut it. I'm already rolling my eyes at myself.

In response to my own ego

Fuck waiting around for other people, I'm officially reccing myself.

Personal Call--Batman: The Animated Series--[Gen]--Batman, Jim and the rooftop. [Or, Jim Gordon is an investigator, and he notices things.]
Three Things that Did Not Happen to Warrick Brown on the Night of Nick Stokes's Kidnapping--CSI--[Nick/Warrick]--One night, three possibilities, none of them true. [Spoilers for "Grave Danger"]
Untangling--CSI: New York--[Mac/Danny]--After the events of "Tanglewood", Mac and Danny hash out the facts.
Love is Yarn--Crossing Jordan--[Nigel/Bug]--Bug, Nigel, and a craft store.
Die Again, Bitch--Dead Like Me--[Rube/George]--Fannish cliché #126 [new person in town], makes George realize her feelings for Rube.
A Puppy, Some "Sugar", and One Mouthy Wolf--Due South--[Fraser/RayK]--7 pages of fluff and puppy.
The End of Forever--Firefly--[Zoe/Wash]--After "Serenity", the parts we didn't see.
Eight Years In--Harry Potter--[No pairing]--How time and blood can change things.
In the Aftermath--Harry Potter-[Snape/Harry]--What happens when it's over and duty's done.
X and Average Men--Heroes/X-Men--[Matt/Mohinder]--Matt, Mohinder, Molly, and the X-Men. Bring it. [29,000 words]
Having Dr. Suresh--Heroes--[Matt/Mohinder]--Ficcish cliché #114: Outside person looking in. Fun!
Sex-Scene, Victorian Style--Horatio Hornblower--[Bush/Kennedy]--Bush, Kennedy, and a meeting on the street.
Not-Staring Contest--House--[Chase/Cameron]--He's trying not to stare.
Toaster of Truth--Keen Eddie--[Eddie/Monty]--Monty, Eddie, a toaster, and a waiting room. [Mild spoilers for "Sucker Punch"]
Kiss and Make Up--Law and Order--[Jack McCoy/Mike Cutter]--Post-ep for "Misbegotten" [18.3]. A little verbal sparring. A little sex.
Fraternity--Law and Order: CI/SVU--[Goren/Stabler]--No summary.
Twenty Years Gone--MASH--[BJ/Hawkeye]--“Peg, honey, it’s not like that.” Or maybe it is. BJ, the truth, and the layering of lies over decades. [14,000 words]
Four Ways Ari Didn't Die [and One Way He Did]--NCIS--[No pairing]--Post-Twilight; What might have happened.
Twenty-Two--Numb3rs--[Charlie/Larry]--Two men in love with numbers, in love with each other.
Brilliance--Numb3rs--[Charlie/Larry]--The chances of senility in one Larry Fleinhardt.
Modern-Day Water Nymphs--Olympics RPS--[Ian Thorpe/Michael Phelps]--Ian and Michael meet. Krazelberg sings chorus. [Yes, Krazelberg's name is spelled wrong, but I just only noticed.]
Collared--Psych--[Shawn/Lassiter]--Buh? Porn, folks. PR0N [Light Sub/Dom stuff]
Into the Next Moment--RENT--[Mark/Roger]--After the second New Year.
You'll Have to Wear a Beard--Singin' in the Rain--[Don/Cosmo]--The early days at Radio Pictures.
Untitled "Sky Captain" Fic--Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow--[Dex/Joe]--Frankie talks to Dex. Dex talks to Joe. Polly knocks on a door.


So there. My personal favorites. My ego is soothed.