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perpetual_motionBut I'm even more amazed when I win.
I picked up Best Non NC-18 other slash pairing at the![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
ncis_awards for my Tony/McGee fic Lies, Damned Lies, and a Grain of Truth. I had two other nominations [Giving Up on Sleep"-Best Post-ep [non-Twilight] and Vacation-Best McGee fic], but those awards went to someone else. I was also up for Best Author, which still stuns me, but it passed me by, which does not surprise me.
Here's the thing: When I get nominated for awards, it shocks me. I know I'm a good writer, and I know I'm enjoyed as a writer, but to know that I'm enjoyed to the point of nomination and to find out that I'm good enough to win is stunning for me. Sure, one person may like my work enough to put my name in the hat, but there's a certain amount of shock that comes along with finding out that other people think it's good enough to win. The part that's forever amusing to me is that I rarely agree with the nominations. While "Lies, Damned Lies, and a Grain of Truth" is a fun ficlet that I like very much, I don't think I ever would have picked it out of my stack. I would have nominated "Giving Up on Sleep" because I think it's a great piece, and I really worked at it. "Lies" just kind of happened out of the blue and came out exactly as it's typed up now. I worked at "Giving Up on Sleep", discarded a couple of false starts, and even revised it a little before posting. "Vacation" was a total throwaway piece done for sheer amusement, and to see it up for awards, to realize that it was liked so much that someone wanted it noticed, that's really surprising.
I, personally, would have put up Four Ways Ari Didn't Die, and One Way He Did. I think that's the strongest NCIS piece I have. I'm always interested in how my view of my work, and other people's view of my work can be so completely different.
If you nominated me or voted for me, thank you very much. It means a lot to know that with all the NCIS fic that's out there, you think I'm at the top of the heap.
I picked up Best Non NC-18 other slash pairing at the
ncis_awards for my Tony/McGee fic Lies, Damned Lies, and a Grain of Truth. I had two other nominations [Giving Up on Sleep"-Best Post-ep [non-Twilight] and Vacation-Best McGee fic], but those awards went to someone else. I was also up for Best Author, which still stuns me, but it passed me by, which does not surprise me.Here's the thing: When I get nominated for awards, it shocks me. I know I'm a good writer, and I know I'm enjoyed as a writer, but to know that I'm enjoyed to the point of nomination and to find out that I'm good enough to win is stunning for me. Sure, one person may like my work enough to put my name in the hat, but there's a certain amount of shock that comes along with finding out that other people think it's good enough to win. The part that's forever amusing to me is that I rarely agree with the nominations. While "Lies, Damned Lies, and a Grain of Truth" is a fun ficlet that I like very much, I don't think I ever would have picked it out of my stack. I would have nominated "Giving Up on Sleep" because I think it's a great piece, and I really worked at it. "Lies" just kind of happened out of the blue and came out exactly as it's typed up now. I worked at "Giving Up on Sleep", discarded a couple of false starts, and even revised it a little before posting. "Vacation" was a total throwaway piece done for sheer amusement, and to see it up for awards, to realize that it was liked so much that someone wanted it noticed, that's really surprising.
I, personally, would have put up Four Ways Ari Didn't Die, and One Way He Did. I think that's the strongest NCIS piece I have. I'm always interested in how my view of my work, and other people's view of my work can be so completely different.
If you nominated me or voted for me, thank you very much. It means a lot to know that with all the NCIS fic that's out there, you think I'm at the top of the heap.
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on 2005-10-21 04:52 am (UTC)